I wrote this on September 17th and never posted it...I dont even think its finished but here it is.

It is currently 430am Eastern Standard Time.

Why are you awake you may ask? It is because I am currently at work. I work part time at a hotel near my house. I work the over night shift doing the audit. I am not a huge fan of this shift, which is part of the reason why I am taking a "leave of absence". I wasn't allowed to quit my job, if I had tried harder I'm sure I could have made sure they took me off of the pay roll but I didn't try hard. I like the idea of a leave of absence. I can be gone for some time and when I decide to come back I still have a job (in theory). Plus I said I will fill in if need be during my absence.

The third shift and I do not get along. My brain tells me to do it because its easy and the money is good. While my body tells me I am a moron for continuing to do it because I do not do well staying up all night long. I am very tired and cranky when I am done with my shift. Some days, like today, I don't even get to go home and go to bed. Today I have an appointment with the dietitian, then class. After class I will be able to go home and get two hours of nap time in before I need to head off to work. Once I am done at work I will be able to go home and nap again for about three and a half hours before I need to come back here and be awake again. Just thinking about it makes me want to cry. But it is all my own doing. I allowed myself to do this.